the kingdom of despair

I havent updated in a while so I will now. Im over him, well, for the most part. I will explain chronology first.

Boy likes Girl

Boy gets rejected

Boy finds Whore (other boy namely me)

Boy no longer needs Whore for comfort

Boy dumps Whore

Boy leaves school and finds Whore can be used for sex

Whore is used by Boy for sex

Boy no longer wants Whore for sex

Boy moves on to womens

Boy get back Girl

So you see, I was just a place holder, nothing but a whore for the using. I had no purpose and he didnt really like me. It helped me get over him, I mean, at least this way I never brang him anything but a bit of pleasure, this way I know that the love between use was only my own and delusions created by my own, not love between me and him at all. But of course I then found out through another friend and not him that the night of his heart breaking of namely me he forgot to mention to me that he would never have sex with me again either. So that was lost as well.

So I went to a party last night. He and his Girl were there. They spend most of the party together away from everyone else, estranging themselves the whole party to be cuddly. Not that I care (well for the most part anyways) but its then that I decided that the next party I have (my birthday), I will only be able to invite one of them for two reasons

Im not having cuddly couples leaving my party to be a cuddly, no, thats both disrespectful and a disgusting use of me, I may be a whore but Im not going to let people walk away from my party
He could easily, whether he says he wont or not, take her to my spot, the spot where I pleasured him and one before he, its mine for my men and him taking anyone else there could taint my spot...thats not about to happen