I havent made an effort with this diary, I keep thinking about not having it, I mean, whats the point, it does nothing for me and am not sure but I think Im starting to use it to get a message accross to other people which is something I shouldnt be doing cause its for "relief." It relieves me of nothing though cause it doesnt solve any problems and what not.

I got my computer working again, of course, it doesnt work with windows cause windows is a B4S74RD. Ha ha, sorry, Im a d0rk. So yeah, I have linux on my computer cause linux is 7h3 b3s7. No go get it!!! Not really, its not for people who cant look at an example and figure things out like that...and even that can lead to a problem, thats how you screw yourself, make something go wrong. Yeah. so anyways, I think I have made it pretty homie. I have a media player that plays practically all files and I have a cd player and an mp3 player so yeah, Im like all set. Except for the file-shariing things since kazaa lite doesnt work for linux so mainly I have to use...wait, government spies AH AH AH, ok, I cant use any file-sharing programs << >> yes, I am a good non-illegal child (7h3 g0v0rnm3n7 suXs). What, there is nothing there officer, that is just a bunch of letters and numbers, I cant be arrested for that!!! Ok, am done with this paragraph.

So moving on, my life is a pityless shit hole suck fuck. Yes, stream of foul language. I am alone. Utterly alone. I have no one to be by myside. I mean yeah I have my friends but they can only provide so much comfort. The other comfort needs a partner to be there. And since no one loves me (at least in that way) ;_: I am alone. So now I have no one in my pickiness and usually the guys I like are straight or are too straight acting to come out or are confusled and so on and so on. There was one exception but he is gone now and sadly his irregular romanticism is gone with him. Only he could make a stream of profane language be romantic, only he. But as I said, he is gone and I am alone. WHY DOESNT ANYONE WANT ME >< I mean, its not even just that, most of my guy friends (and some girls) wont even let me get emotionally close. They get sadful and I get rejected as if there is nothing I could do to help. Im just a whore bag, used and thrown away when I get old. ::sigh:: so here I am, rejected and unwanted...how does this remind me of how america treats old people, and then people wonder why I dont want to grow old....yeah, Im alone, that was the point of this paragraph, so, if I have any fans who are gay/bi males, not overly gay (thats personality so there xP), and havent already rejected me (mainly because I doubt anyone whos already rejected me would want me back), I all alone, come, take me, use me like a ragdoll, better than being....

ALONE