Ugh, I am caught between two extremes, knowledge and ignorance. You see, there was that middle school reunion at which I wanted to test how many students both remembered me and still cared to talk to me. The ones that I wanted to know this of were those that I havent talked to in such a long time, mainly since that last year of middle school. Some no one has talked to while others many have. However, most of the people who did end up showing were people I didnt care about (for reasons such as I had talked to them after that or that I never talked to them in the first place for them to have much memory of me). Only one of the friends I wished to see I saw and I was glad because of this. However, a few others did not show. But there are other ways of communication and, through the email that was sent giving many names to me, I acquired some of those that I did not remember. However, I now find myself in the teenage situation of whether to contact them (this would be an instantanous thing as I dont believe emails are good for contact such as this) or just leave them be. I wish to know whether they still remember me and if they still care to talk to me however I do not want to know what they think of me or why they no longer care to talk to me (both of these only being if they are for the worse, as I said teenager). So mainly I am stuck between fear caused by doubt cause by ignorance of thier knowledge of me and wanting to contact caused by wishing to know caused by my knowledge of them. Hmmmm, I have friends now that would say to go for it and to contact them. I also have friends who (upon finding the names of such people as no one knows the names as I have not told anyone) would tell me its not worth talking to such losers. Decisions decisions. Ah well, I guess there is no sure way of deciding unless its instantanous, which is usually how I make my decisions, thrust myself into the situation, whether Im ready or not, and see how it comes out...this is why I believe I have a different personality cause one could not shove oneself in such a manner but one could shove ones-otherself in that same manner. Stupid crap, bah, well I can only hope for the best.