Im morbid, depressed, and monotoned at the moment so I might sound brief, uncaring, and, well, depressed. First, I finished school, yay, right? no, wrong, its a long weekend of lonliness, I hate it, Ill be alone like usual, no one to love, to make love too...ah well. Also, I didnt get into a trig course and I dont thing there is much I can do now, other than convince the BCC head person to let me in, or convince next years math teacher let me take two courses at once. Ok, also, for school purposes, I have three leaving me, my favorite magnet coordinator, my computer geek friend (though he is more than just a computer geek to me), and my other gay friend. So, thats three.

Ok, also, Im lonely. Not only have I become hung on the one I loved with all my heart (you should know by now who this is, it was kinda a long relationship), but I dont think I can love anymore without fear of getting hurt. Oh, and it seams like my recent dumper is avoiding me to make things worse. And, I mean, I would fill that gapping hole in my chest with pointless and senseless sex, but there is no one to have it with, so, you know, I kinda cant fill that hole.

Last (and most depressing of the day) is that one of my good good friends is leaving. He wont be around and it makes me sad as I only knew him a year and yet thought he was cool (in my opinion anyways). He became a good friend to me, rare as it. And, now that he leaves, its like losing a good friend. Life is so unfair...

Well, that should be it, um, sure, I dont care at the moment, Im really depressed about my friend leaving, I really dont want to lost him. Well, I only serve to be depressed...;_;

See You Space Cowboy