Life is so depressing. I feel so alone again, so unwanted and so unloved. Why is it that no one loves me, is it destiny for me to be alone in this world. Those that love me eventually stop, but me, ahh, me on the other hand, I always remember, I never forget the attachment between my heart and theirs, I always feel the pull of the string that rips pieces away from me, and where does this leave me, that right, with a giant gapping hole in my chest that leaves me feeling empty on the inside. My suicide thought rate has increased dramatically...sometimes I wonder whether I will last to see my 18th birthday, its too hard on this world for me, I mean, what can I say, I'm a weakling, I fall in love too easily cause I'm too weak to resist the temptation to love, I can pull the grades because I'm too weak to control my own brain, and I'm too weak to be an optimist, it seams like I wasn't meant to stay on this planet for too long. I need someone to cuddle and look at me, I have no one in my arms, not any of my former boyfriends not any of my other friends, no one...even when I'm surrounded by people who claim to "love" me, I feel alone, like I don't belong...if I slit my wrists tonight, would anyone really care for me, would anyone really mourn for that long, or would they just move on, forget me, another suicide case...maybe that's my fate, to be another worthless nobody in the fields upon continents upon planets of suicide faces and the irony of it, I wanted so badly so grow up and be something new and invent something different...that dream only seams to grow farther and farther away. If death is a disease, love must be the cause. If love is a disease, despair is a drug induced side effect. Despair, my everlasting specialty, no other feeling in my skull...just....pain. Why cant I be loved and love without having to love the bitter sweet taste of pain? Even when wanting to love another I fear pain, not from them, but from me...I wouldn't want to put anyone through what I go through, anyone...

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